Today is my 35th day of Staying Safe at Home since February 29th. Apart from sneaking out three times in between; the first time was a long period to be outside of the house. I attended a cake decoration course that lasted the entire day. It was a long self debate overnight, it was an event that was booked months prior but I knew that I wanted to go. That was three weeks ago, so it had passed the 14th day of what I called my ‘worry period’.
Other outings was a short trip of finding an ATM, thereafter quickly popping out to the supermarket.
The fact is, it worries me so much now just to go out of the house. I’m not worried about how I would look or whether or not my makeup was good enough, but mostly whether what I was wearing to cover myself was safe enough. I thought I would still look fashionable though, wearing a nice pink surgical mask and putting on clear plastic gloves. Yet, the risky thought of going out is a greater worry, which makes me anxious. My time outside was always filled with wonders whether everything I touched would harm me, or whether it’s been cleaned.
On the contrary, going out is never felt like a wrong decision. There are so many things that I learned during my decorating class that could make a recipient very happy in my next batch of orders. Trips to the supermarket have made my family very happy as well, as I would cook for them right after my return.
And… come to think of it, this is actually a free lesson of self-learning. I have become a better chef for my family, only with the use of YouTube and creativity. Although not everything might taste perfect every time, but my family always looked forward to it. And you know what, when we finish our meal, my 87 year old mom always rewarded me with her best chocolate collection.
Then my day closed with a heart so full on a very fulfilling day. ❤
Till next time ..... -