Soooooo yesterday I had a counseling appointment. She lives in a place I am completely unfamiliar with so when I have an appointment I use GPS to get there. It ALWAYS take me on the main route and, therefore, I ALWAYS have to drive by this certain building that brings back tough memories. I look at it everytime and reflect. Anyways, after my session I entered my home address into the GPS but instead it told me to turn left when I didn't expect it. I even muttered out loud, "This isn't the way I go." As if I know better even though - and Ted will attest to this - I am completely unfamiliar with most of the Niagara area. So I turned left. What a beautiful drive!!!!!! I went past gorgeous scenery and kept telling myself to stop and take a picture. This picture is my descent home and it was gorgeous...seeing the lake off in the distance.
When I first chose to obey and turn left - veer off my normal route - I was worried and didn't want to...I even thought, "Wait. I won't drive by that place...." That place with terrible memories...and yet the place I look for every time. The place I'm COMFORTABLE driving by. But after taking the left and driving for a minute or 2, I saw so much beauty that I forgot about the old route...about the ugly place.
In my life, I gravitate to guilt and shame. That is my familiar route...the way I always go. It is comfortable. I know it well. So when my counselor points out that we need to work on getting rid of that, I balk at it. I want to say, "Wait. This isn't the way I go." But I'm going to go see her again...I'm going to make that left turn. And after a little while, when I've seen some beautiful things on this new route, I bet I will forget my old route...I won't look for the familiar, ugly places. Maybe my song for the day should be Beyonce...to the left, to the left, everything I own on the route to the left...
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