It’s 1:40am and you can’t fall asleep, me on the other hand can barely keep my eyes open, we have been battling since 8pm. I fed you, burped you and changed your diaper, nevertheless you’re still crying. I start wondering, is she in pain? Could she be hungry still?? Does something hurt?
I’m trying so hard not to loose it, but truth is I just want to cry and scream at the same time. I’m exhausted, I’m sleep deprived, I’m frustrated. All I ate today was a key lime yogurt, not by choice, but because I didn’t have the time to sit down and have a proper meal. I’m going crazy counting down the minutes for Eli to get home so I can have a break. Between taking care of my baby, laundry, dishes, cleaning, organizing, decluttering; I forgot about myself.
I can no longer take a 30 minutes bath, I mean a 3 minutes shower sounds more like a privilege than a necessity. 🤷🏽♀️🤷🏽♀️
Now I have huge bags under my eyes as a reminder of me fulfilling my calling the night before, and the night before, and the night before, you get it! No Karen, I’m not purposely trying to look like a raccoon!! 🙄🙄
Doesn’t your husband help, you might ask??? First of all, he doesn’t “help” he co-parents with me, and yes he tries to take the lead but I refuse to let him do it. Why?? Simple, I fear he will be so sleep deprived the next morning that he would fall asleep while driving to work. I could never forgive myself if that were to happen.
It’s 2:00am, baby fell asleep, now I just pray she can sleep for a few hours so I can get myself together and be sane for tomorrow’s...for whatever the heck happens tomorrow. I mean later today, oh boy! It’s Friday already, TGIF!!!! Whatever, who am I kidding?? #maternitycandriveyoucrazy #lovemybabygirl #blessedbeyondmeasure #motherdaughter