Its 2020, and I am finally seeing clearly. 💯
Being properly medicated, having my sobriety, and most importantly my relationship with God.
It took a LOT of suffering and learning to get to this point. Not to mention extensive therapy(multiple modalities), ITMS(basically brain electrocution), and a honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness to acknowledge my shortcomings and have a faith in a power greater than myself and work the 12 steps like my life depended on it(because it does).
It has been no easy road. I have overdosed on almost every drug known to man, had sleepless nights and battled suicidality, and left immense destruction in my wake.
I am no longer the girl who burns villages to the ground and walks around with ashes in her hands and tears in her eyes.
I no longer need outside validation, nor do I have to live in fear, shame, or jealousy. I no longer have to act on my anger, am not brimming with hatred(for myself or others), and am in no competition with anyone. I only desire to be better than I was yesterday, and live in God's will for me to the best of my ability.
Today, I am working on loving myself as God loves me. Today, I do not have to identify solely as the person suffering 13 years of active addiction. Today, I don't even have to identify as male or female. I can honor the spectrum of life, and give voice to my multiple parts(formerly known as multiple personalities). I can explore the realm of the unknown, grow spiritually, and be comfortable in my own skin. 💜🌻🌳💅💪🥰🙌🤷♀️👏💞👍💚
Today, I have a program of recovery (AA,MA,NA,DAA,&SLAA) and I do my best to work it to the best of my ability. I am certainly no saint, and I am not where I want to be, but thank God I am not where I used to be. I have found a new way of living, and a newfound sense of serenity and freedom. 🌞⏳🌛🖼🏅🦄🎆🐎💐🎭🎨🌌🌠🌈
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