Warning: Triggers ahead
I remember painting this in a very dark place in my mind, I couldn't stop the drinking, I was competing against myself in how long I could last without eating, was blacking out blocks of my day, hurting myself and primarily spent most days alone.
It was only last Christmas, almost a year ago.
To think where I was and to think where I am now, I'm no longer sad to see this, because it shows improvement. I have grown in endless ways in the last year, in some senses into a person I don't recgonize, yet feel more me than ever.
I definitely still struggle with these battles, especially in the lonelier and more stressful times. However I've found ways to self soothe these self destructive urges, even reach out if I have to.
Ive finally opened up and the rewards are astounding! I've found a person who makes me really reeeally gross, I've poured energy into the right friendships (something I need to do a post about), I've rekindled some family connections and most amazingly, I've found You guys!
So if you're out there and you're feeling like you're drowning, put your hand up. People will come and they will surprise you, because you are definitely, not alone. You can ask for help ❤️ and if no one else believes you, I will x
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