Yesterday I did something I don't normally do, I made last minute plans to go out with my toddler *gasps😱* Some of you are probably thinking "yeah, so?" But let me tell you what its like living with Anxiety...in the past I have cancelled SO MANY perfectly planned out plans because I thought of a 'what if' situation I hadn't prepared for. I have cancelled dates because I was scared to 'perform' in front of other people at a resturaunt. Play dates for my son have been cancelled because I get a last minute panic attack and cannot pull my shit together quick enough. I have called out of work in fear that I *might* get a costumer who was to much for me that day and make me lose it. Park days and errands have been cut short due to the overwhelming feeling that my kid *might* throw a tantrum I cannot control. These are some of the feelings I struggle to push through every day.
Yesterday I did something I don't normally do and one of my fears happened, my son threw a tantrum in the middle of the turtle habitat and I almost lost my shit as well. Honestly if it were not for @yvngxcarcass
I would have picked up my toddler and stomped right out of that place🤷♀️ BUT luckily my man was there, we gave each other a look and for some reason that was all I needed to pull myself back and get a grip on my kid. We took turns explaining to Zander how his behavior is not so good and why he needed to calm down, it worked for the most part! So today my #mancrushmonday
is for MY man for being my rock and my happy place🖤
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