I’ve been making short & long documentary bike films since 2013. Listen up an angel just called me, which has put me into better perspective with myself. I’ve been so eager to live at a young age, and yet I still do not fully grasp why my life remains so hard. It wants me to work for it, but I’m to busy talking about that next person, or what I want, and how hard it is for me, instead of putting in the real work while I’m young. I’ve been lazy on myself and haven’t been trying to make it easier for myself when I’m old. I sit around daily just lost in emotions wasting my precious time. I go to work and recycle the same lessons, I fail everyday walking outside with the same failure mindset on a daily. I fail myself everyday constantly trying to alienate myself from society, I choose to medicate often in order to help me deal with society, maybe society isn’t the problem, maybe I’m just looking at it all wrong. Living my life for shortcuts instead of actually doing the real work and trying to be my best. Here I knew nothing about film making or the career I could have behind it. I saw it as pure joy, and it was easy, but having to it break down and learn the fundamentals of it, it became harder to do. Also dealing with emotions slowed up the process too. Everyone that has ever came into my life had a message and I didn’t listen too. I just talked sh*t about how others get it, how much easier their lives are compared to mine, I didn’t see the hard work and dedication they’ve been putting into their craft, and no matter what I’ve always been the person stopping myself from achieving success I Souly crave, but it’s okay, because it’s not a race KFC made it when he was 62, just thought I’d say. We have to stay focused, and just like a shower motivation needs to be refreshed.